I'm feeling suicidal because my mom hates me!?!

ur gonna think im nuts for posting because i am 43 years old. my mom hates me and its so hard to deal with. my father suffered a painful 5 months of dying slowly. they are divorced and i had to handle everything myself. my mother get jealous when other people are sick. she has to be sicker then anybody. i guess she wants the attention. after burying my father she showed no support. i needed to talk and she told me no. i slipped into depression. it went on for two years. the ***** is on so many pills from shrinks so i asked her for help. she said no. i got myself on her kind of drugs and they didnt help me so i decided to self medicate with coke. well it was working for me fine until my mother found out. she told me to get the **** out. i was so loaded on coke that i decided to kill myself. i took 65 xanax and went upstairs to tell her to get her attention. she didnt care. i had to call 911 myself. then she had me committed to a psych ward. they over dosed me on lithium and sent me home. i wasnt aloud to go home so i slept in my car. i stayed in a hotel and was getting sicker from the over dose. she tried to committ me again. i was taken to the emergency room and was told that i was near death. totally dehydrated and rock bottom potasium. they ask me to sign myself in and i told them no. just to let you know my mother works at this hospital. they give her all my personal info when its against the law. i got a motel room by the beach and within a 2 week time span we had a fight on the phone. she called the police and they came to my room. i told them it was just a fight but she told them that i wanted to kill myself. they left but returned at 2:00 in the morning with 2 woman from a crisis unit. they came in and started going thru my draws and i freaked out and started cursing them out. they said i was non comlient and have to be assessed. the cops told me to get in the car. i said no that this was bull **** and they said get in or i would be hand cuffed. i was assessed at a different hospital and after a few hours they said i could go. as i was getting ready to leave they said that the stand in doctor called and said i cant leave. i was almost out the door. they stuck me in another psych ward for 2 weeks and put me back on lithium. i told them i cant take it and they said i would take it or they would never let me go home. i took it and got sick again. i now have permanent dammage from lithium. i was able to leave the hotel and come home. i know im 43 years old so this sounds strange. my mother adopts kids and one of them became got attached to me and called me mommy. so my mother adopted him because i didnt go for the classes and gave him my last name. then they built on to the house so that my son and i could have our own place. so im not retarted or anything. well while i was gone my room was emptied and she gave it to one of the other kids. i had to set my bed up in the basement. she let the kids do what ever they wanted in my room. cell phones were stolen and they found the combination to my safe and took $2500.00. that was all i had left. my mother told me today that i was garbage and she hates me. she told me that she knows nothing about the and she dont care. she said i should buy my own food yet i ndont have any money. after my father died he left me some money. ive spent it all on the family. and i mean i spent alot. i bought her husband a car. i bought my mother front loader washer and dryer. 3 lap top computers and all 11 people living in the house had a brand new unlocked cell phone. so if you think your mother is bad be happy you dont have mine. get out while you can. the abuse gets worse and worse as you get older. i got married at the age of 20 just to get out. i have told everyone that my mother better pray that her husband doesnt die before her. because i will stick that bitches *** in the worse nursing home in the worse neigborhood i could find and hire a huge male nurse named bubba to give her the weekly enimas. i swear to god this story is true. i am in total hell cause she wont let me take my kid with me so i have to hide in her basement just to be able to see him. and people ask why i drink and do drugs. i have just given everyone justification for drinking and getting high. its the only pleasure in my life accept my son. i guess i got a little out of control on this site but once i started typing it became like theropy to me. i hope that anyone who is having problems with their mother will find that you are not alone after you read my story. it is sad but so true......Health Question & Answer

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guess wat ur mom is a b*tch. i'm 14 and if datt sh*it happend 2 me i wouldent wanna get hit but da bus i would be riden da bus. if ya need sum 1 2 talk 2 just click my pic and im or email me. And if ya do hit tha rode bring sum 1 wit u and have sum cashHealth Question & Answer

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stop crying plzHealth Question & Answer

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Well first of all if you were not hungry why did you not say to mom in a polite way that you would like to be excused and go to your room and sing. Singing at the dinner table is not mannerly.
Now what your mom did after that was not right.
You have to ask yourself how long this has been going on. Was it Always like this.?
Were there happier times between the two of you before.?
If there was, think back when you and your mom got along, and you both can work on that.
Sometimes talking about it helps.
And saying sorry helps too.
Have you tried lending a helping hand since she has the flu.?
I'm sure she was there for you when you were sick as a child.
Just think. When you turn 18, you can move out.
There are also helpline numbers to call if you are really in distress. Check on the computer in your area.
But something tells me your going to be ok.
Good luck & try to relax.Health Question & Answer

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Ok girlfriend slow down here don't go killing your self here!If you do that then your going to hell for all eternity and I know that you don't want that!Now for your Mom is just up set with you and didn't mean what she said!I'm a parent my self so know!Sorry if I sound like a parent because I am!Your Mom don't hate you she's just stressed and singing at the table is bad manners there! So you was wrong for doing that and I see why!Now you and your Mom needs to sit down and talk and work things out!Good Luck!Health Question & Answer

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This process of Self Reflection has truly changed my life

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