Yesterday while at work i went into the bathroom and started to cry?!
Question: Yesterday while at work i went into the bathroom and started to cry.?
I work at safeway and yesterday i felt so crappy i just went and isolated myself in a bathroom. Its a single bathroom in the back. I just went in, locked the door and sat against the door and began to cry. I don't know why I did it. I was fine before i went into work and then about after 20 minutes it just seem to hit me. All of my coworkers could tell something was wrong with me. My manager asked if i was sick cuz i normally talk a lot. Like nonstop to where my manager tells me to shut up. I felt horrible. I lock myself in the bathroom for about 10 minutes. But no one knows it. I've had these feelings off and on since i was 13 (i'm now 16) and i've always been able to tolerate them but it seems like lately they've been getting worse. I just feel so cappy that i break out in tears and i get these horrible thoughts. Like last night i had thought about going and getting a box cutter cuz i can barely stand the feeling. It just recently has been getting worse. Could some1 please help me>thanksHealth Question & Answer
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I understand how you feel and I'm sorry you are going through this. I use to do that at work at times. I was very happy, bubbly and funny. But it was a mask. I was pushing my feelings farther and farther down into myself. I would end up cracking. My friends/co-workers would be able to tell something was wrong but I would just say I'm okay. Then I would head to the bathroom. Make sure no one else was in there. Get in a stall and just weep, and weep uncontrollably. Trying to regain control, by once again pushing the feelings down. Then I would come out of the stall,clean up my face and go back to work. I knew I suffered from severe anxiety. But a few years later I was also diagnosed with bi-polar ll. I am not suggesting you have that, just sharing my experience. At first I sought no help and told no one. I was ashamed. It got to the point that I would tell myself everyday "Tommorow I will kill myself". "I will cut my wrist open with something and just bleed to death". And I will make sure no one knows, so no one will try and stop me. It was a living "hell". And the next day when I did not kill myself I would once again tell myself "Tommorw, tommorrow I WILL do it". And crazy enough as it sounds the next day when I did not I felt even worse. I felt like a coward, that I would not follow thru and just do it and get it over with.
I was right around your age too. You are so young. Please seek help. It can get better. The sooner you get help the better so it does not progress and perhaps start to affect your life even more. I myself began self-mutilating, and self-medicating with alchohal to try and forget the feelings and just escape. Even for a little while.
At least you are reaching out here. That is brave to share something so persoanl. You should be proud of yourself.
I wish you all the best. You are not alone. If you ever feel like talking e-mail me. Even if it's just to vent.Health Question & Answer
I was right around your age too. You are so young. Please seek help. It can get better. The sooner you get help the better so it does not progress and perhaps start to affect your life even more. I myself began self-mutilating, and self-medicating with alchohal to try and forget the feelings and just escape. Even for a little while.
At least you are reaching out here. That is brave to share something so persoanl. You should be proud of yourself.
I wish you all the best. You are not alone. If you ever feel like talking e-mail me. Even if it's just to vent.Health Question & Answer
Please speak to your guidance counselor at school, a parent, even your manager at work. Can you call a teen crisis hotline.? Please seek help.Health Question & Answer
It's called depression and you need treatment quickly.Health Question & Answer
I feel for you. I have been there before and it even got to the point for me that I almost quit my job over it. I had depression when I was a child and then as soon as I hit 24 it was Extreme depression. It sounds to me like you may either have depression or be bipolar. With bipolar you go through episodes of extreme highs and lows. Depression it is mostly lows. I think it's time that you go to your parents for help and see your doctor. They can prescribe the best treatment for you.Health Question & Answer