I think i was molested...please help!!!?!
Question: I think i was molested...please help!!!.?
i think i was molested but i have no clue who it could have been. i dont think it could be my dad because he was kinda lazy after work and just slept all day and i dont feel like it was him really, but idk what other guys i was ever alone with. i have some weird random memories like
i remember being at church in this kids worship class and this guy scared me so much that i always cried, i loved that class @ first but i stopped going because he scared me SOOO much, he was so creepy, and in that class i remember he would lean on my shoulders and it made me uncomfortable and he said you make a nice arm rest. it was weird and he was hurting me because he had all his weight leaning on me. i forgot all about him until recently and now i feel like it had to be him but the thing is i dont think i was ever alone with him, i believe there was always other kids and maybe another guy helping, i cant really remember though(although i know all the adults were guys). i know most people say just forget about it and move on, but i HAVE to know!! its already screwed up my life and i want to know the truth, i actually think id feel better. the reason main i feel like i might have been molested is the way i feel about sex. usually i feel it is disgusting and i wish it didnt exist, then suddenly ill want to have sex really bad then i want to kill myself and hate sex again, its almost like im bipolar about it or somthing its hard to explain though. but mostly the thought of it makes me feel sick ughh
i hate this so much i just want to know the truth so i can move past it
also this is gonna sound weird but being horny really upsets me so i just pee until it goes away cuz it makes the feeling go away for awhile, so somtimes i will stay up all night forcing myslef to pee, its the only thing that seems to work, its so embarressing =[ (please no mean comments this is hard for me) and the most embarressing thing for me is that when i was little i at times wanted to have sex with anything living, i was so screwed up, and i was only in 2nd grade, i also felt like i wanted to be in control, idk its hard to explain and im embarressed
please help, and DONT say just dont think about it, maybe most people wouldnt want to know but i need to know the truth :(Health Question & Answer
i remember being at church in this kids worship class and this guy scared me so much that i always cried, i loved that class @ first but i stopped going because he scared me SOOO much, he was so creepy, and in that class i remember he would lean on my shoulders and it made me uncomfortable and he said you make a nice arm rest. it was weird and he was hurting me because he had all his weight leaning on me. i forgot all about him until recently and now i feel like it had to be him but the thing is i dont think i was ever alone with him, i believe there was always other kids and maybe another guy helping, i cant really remember though(although i know all the adults were guys). i know most people say just forget about it and move on, but i HAVE to know!! its already screwed up my life and i want to know the truth, i actually think id feel better. the reason main i feel like i might have been molested is the way i feel about sex. usually i feel it is disgusting and i wish it didnt exist, then suddenly ill want to have sex really bad then i want to kill myself and hate sex again, its almost like im bipolar about it or somthing its hard to explain though. but mostly the thought of it makes me feel sick ughh
i hate this so much i just want to know the truth so i can move past it
also this is gonna sound weird but being horny really upsets me so i just pee until it goes away cuz it makes the feeling go away for awhile, so somtimes i will stay up all night forcing myslef to pee, its the only thing that seems to work, its so embarressing =[ (please no mean comments this is hard for me) and the most embarressing thing for me is that when i was little i at times wanted to have sex with anything living, i was so screwed up, and i was only in 2nd grade, i also felt like i wanted to be in control, idk its hard to explain and im embarressed
please help, and DONT say just dont think about it, maybe most people wouldnt want to know but i need to know the truth :(Health Question & Answer
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hey your mind does block it out being abused is on the increase , and it can destroy your life, you can end up mentally unwell please see a doctor maybe a woman doctor someone you can start to trust and confide in before this goes any further
good luck sweetie
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good luck sweetie
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You did not describe any incident where you remember being touched inappropriately. It is impossible for anyone to tell if you have been molested. You do seem to have a problem with these thoughts and only a professional can help you get to the cause.
Do not go to someone who specializes in digging up repressed memories because there have been too many cases of false memories having been generated by therapists who look for them. Try a regular therapist who will see what is bothering you.Health Question & Answer
Do not go to someone who specializes in digging up repressed memories because there have been too many cases of false memories having been generated by therapists who look for them. Try a regular therapist who will see what is bothering you.Health Question & Answer
everyone feels horny every once in a while, if you are a good person and think that sex should be used only for having children, than you will feel the way you do about bieng horny, but it DOES happen.
most likely if you were molested, you would know, if someone had sex with you when you were sleeping, say, you would wake up. almost garanteed. I remember that my neibor was having a problem just like you, and she talked to her parents about it and she felt alot better.Health Question & Answer
most likely if you were molested, you would know, if someone had sex with you when you were sleeping, say, you would wake up. almost garanteed. I remember that my neibor was having a problem just like you, and she talked to her parents about it and she felt alot better.Health Question & Answer
Sorry to disappoint, I'd really love to help, but I'm not quite sure what you're asking. :\
I can't tell you if you were indeed molested, and furthermore I can't tell you if it was that creepo. All I can offer is advice, and I think the best way is to go to the source. I know this must be driving you crazy. So if you really think it was him, go to church and talk to him. Don't demand answers or throw accusations, just go in there, and tell him that the way he touched you (the shoulder thing) made you very uncomfortable, and if he did anything more. I know this all sounds so weird, but... really, it seems like your only option.
Good luck, stay strong, you'll get to the bottom of this one way or another :)Health Question & Answer
I can't tell you if you were indeed molested, and furthermore I can't tell you if it was that creepo. All I can offer is advice, and I think the best way is to go to the source. I know this must be driving you crazy. So if you really think it was him, go to church and talk to him. Don't demand answers or throw accusations, just go in there, and tell him that the way he touched you (the shoulder thing) made you very uncomfortable, and if he did anything more. I know this all sounds so weird, but... really, it seems like your only option.
Good luck, stay strong, you'll get to the bottom of this one way or another :)Health Question & Answer
What did your parents teach you about sex.? I only ask that because if you were taught that it was a bad thing, than having these thoughts might upset you. You may want it as a normal person, then feel very guilty for wanting it. Try to remember whether you were taught it was evil, bad, immoral and see if that helps. You might be creating a monster out of normal sexual feelings because you were told they were bad.
My parents just told me never to have sex. Then in school we were constantly told about all the diseases you could get. We had people who had all these diseases come in and show us their sores an what have you. My point is that it made me very uncomfortable when it came to sex, I always thought (and still do a lot) I was going to catch something.
So if sex was depicted as this evil thing, than maybe that is why you are feeling this way about it.
This guy very well may have been creepy and he may also have been inappropriate, but can you really remember him actually touching you.? That is the question you need to ask.
I also agree with one of the other answers--> don't go to a repressed memory specialist. Find a regular therapist.Health Question & Answer
My parents just told me never to have sex. Then in school we were constantly told about all the diseases you could get. We had people who had all these diseases come in and show us their sores an what have you. My point is that it made me very uncomfortable when it came to sex, I always thought (and still do a lot) I was going to catch something.
So if sex was depicted as this evil thing, than maybe that is why you are feeling this way about it.
This guy very well may have been creepy and he may also have been inappropriate, but can you really remember him actually touching you.? That is the question you need to ask.
I also agree with one of the other answers--> don't go to a repressed memory specialist. Find a regular therapist.Health Question & Answer