I need help _bipolar?anxiety?depressi... ext.._?!
Question: I need help _bipolar.?anxiety.?depression.? ext.._.?
i have posted many articles, seen 3 therpists/psychologists, and searched forever to try to find out a solution. I have gone through lexipro, welbutatain, aderol, ext. So far nothing has helped, i write down everyday whats going on to see if someone can tell me whats wrong so i can persue meds to help.
my question is..... Is there any service or Anyone who can help me through chat or something online.? just so i can get more info. and possibly find out a solution.
Tons of people say i have bipolar disorder, but then others say its different because what i have CYCLES too fast. The therapists i see recommend stuff just to see if it'll work without even listening to me...i don't have the time to test out 20 medications/ hoping that one will help. One therapist is my dads friend who believes i have bipolar disorder with something else but he doesn't want to perscribe bipolar meds because he thinks it'll make me a "zombie"... then others tell me that's false. So i'm really confused here. I haven't really gotten to actually talk with someone to explain myself so they can really get an educated idea of whats wrong.
What people have said that's wrong with me: Bipolar disorder, personality disorder, depression, adhd mixed with depression, anxiety disorder, and some other junk.
I just want to chat with someone online that i can have a disscusion with to see if they have an idea of what i have and what i should do to help myself.
Anything will be GREATLY appreciated as i'm trying to get my life in control before i go off to college (5months away)
.or before i do something EXTREMELY stupid...
~i have punched at least 70 holes in the walls of my house, almost tipped a car (on 2 wheeles), have driven with eyes closed, attempted to start many fights, gone 120mph on highways, skipped 39% of my senior year of high school due to depression/ anger, neglecting many responsibilities, gone anti-social to talkative and back, headakes all the time, lightheaded all the time, broken 3 fingers 2 knuckles from punching things, taken sludgehammer to a bike in anger, walked out of school multiple times from racing thoughts that lead to migranes, cut my arm with a knife, have had times constantly thinking about plain suicide (but cant go through with it as i believe it would be against God's law) and more...
~ all of that is not anything like me, none of my friends realize anything is wrong, my dad tries to help but nothing yet, my mom believes it can all be fixed if i pray....-.- ive prayed a lot -.-
~ive been this way most of my life but within the last 2 years its been the worst yet. And i just want it all to stop, so far every medicine i have taken hasn't helped...the welbutatain gives me more control but isn't near providing a large difference.
sorry for the length/ and the repetition, but thank you for your time.Health Question & Answer
my question is..... Is there any service or Anyone who can help me through chat or something online.? just so i can get more info. and possibly find out a solution.
Tons of people say i have bipolar disorder, but then others say its different because what i have CYCLES too fast. The therapists i see recommend stuff just to see if it'll work without even listening to me...i don't have the time to test out 20 medications/ hoping that one will help. One therapist is my dads friend who believes i have bipolar disorder with something else but he doesn't want to perscribe bipolar meds because he thinks it'll make me a "zombie"... then others tell me that's false. So i'm really confused here. I haven't really gotten to actually talk with someone to explain myself so they can really get an educated idea of whats wrong.
What people have said that's wrong with me: Bipolar disorder, personality disorder, depression, adhd mixed with depression, anxiety disorder, and some other junk.
I just want to chat with someone online that i can have a disscusion with to see if they have an idea of what i have and what i should do to help myself.
Anything will be GREATLY appreciated as i'm trying to get my life in control before i go off to college (5months away)
.or before i do something EXTREMELY stupid...
~i have punched at least 70 holes in the walls of my house, almost tipped a car (on 2 wheeles), have driven with eyes closed, attempted to start many fights, gone 120mph on highways, skipped 39% of my senior year of high school due to depression/ anger, neglecting many responsibilities, gone anti-social to talkative and back, headakes all the time, lightheaded all the time, broken 3 fingers 2 knuckles from punching things, taken sludgehammer to a bike in anger, walked out of school multiple times from racing thoughts that lead to migranes, cut my arm with a knife, have had times constantly thinking about plain suicide (but cant go through with it as i believe it would be against God's law) and more...
~ all of that is not anything like me, none of my friends realize anything is wrong, my dad tries to help but nothing yet, my mom believes it can all be fixed if i pray....-.- ive prayed a lot -.-
~ive been this way most of my life but within the last 2 years its been the worst yet. And i just want it all to stop, so far every medicine i have taken hasn't helped...the welbutatain gives me more control but isn't near providing a large difference.
sorry for the length/ and the repetition, but thank you for your time.Health Question & Answer
Answers:
I am not in the medical field and can clearly see you are very bipolar and nothing more ,My hubsand is just like you almost too the point I wander if you are him hahaha.
Ok all you have stated you are feeling and doing is bioplar my husband goes thru many ups and downs and it is a very hard thing to get stable .One thing I have to say is you have to stay on medicines long enough to see if they work,Let me explain my husband .
Anger snap real qick and can break stuff or go to jail and don't care at that moment ,Looks for a fight thinks everyone is against him ,Blames stuff on life and others and either is very very talktive or wont talk at all.Has a problem doing things he knows will hurt our finances later but reacts in the moment ,Racing thoughts so bad he can not tell yah what he is thinking when he is on a down.Job wise it has to be pretty simple and not alot of public communication.The big thing is mood is never in the middle example like hey I am ok ,It is either a manic or a depression.There is so much more I can tell yah this disorder causes but you want help you need to adopt one family memeber you trust the best and say hey I am going to try this medicine and I want you to log what you see..Sometimes bipolar people think the medicine is not helping but we can.
Ok about the medicine they promote all these new meds all the time and we do have some really old meds out there that works great ask to be put on Tohphnial a very old drug used back in the day for repeated actions such as bed wetting ..They tried me on this and it was a wander medicine and Cymbalta is also a good med,You go and research the older medicines and most likely you will see better results from this .But with Bipolar you have to give the meds a chance like 3 months unless it would cause you to become more angery .I do feel for you as I have seen all this in my husband .Learn more about the condition you have and you will see there is help for you .I wish you all the best because I to know what it is like to not like yourself and or your actions .Please don't give up life is to short to give up.Learn more about your problem.Health Question & Answer
Ok all you have stated you are feeling and doing is bioplar my husband goes thru many ups and downs and it is a very hard thing to get stable .One thing I have to say is you have to stay on medicines long enough to see if they work,Let me explain my husband .
Anger snap real qick and can break stuff or go to jail and don't care at that moment ,Looks for a fight thinks everyone is against him ,Blames stuff on life and others and either is very very talktive or wont talk at all.Has a problem doing things he knows will hurt our finances later but reacts in the moment ,Racing thoughts so bad he can not tell yah what he is thinking when he is on a down.Job wise it has to be pretty simple and not alot of public communication.The big thing is mood is never in the middle example like hey I am ok ,It is either a manic or a depression.There is so much more I can tell yah this disorder causes but you want help you need to adopt one family memeber you trust the best and say hey I am going to try this medicine and I want you to log what you see..Sometimes bipolar people think the medicine is not helping but we can.
Ok about the medicine they promote all these new meds all the time and we do have some really old meds out there that works great ask to be put on Tohphnial a very old drug used back in the day for repeated actions such as bed wetting ..They tried me on this and it was a wander medicine and Cymbalta is also a good med,You go and research the older medicines and most likely you will see better results from this .But with Bipolar you have to give the meds a chance like 3 months unless it would cause you to become more angery .I do feel for you as I have seen all this in my husband .Learn more about the condition you have and you will see there is help for you .I wish you all the best because I to know what it is like to not like yourself and or your actions .Please don't give up life is to short to give up.Learn more about your problem.Health Question & Answer
You know it might be something very easily fixed -----> poor diet + chronic dehydration = crazy behaviour.Health Question & Answer
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I really think you need to get away from seeing therapists only & see a psychiatrist too. also, you should see if your therapist thinks it would help your diagnosis to take the MMPI test (MN multiphasic personality inventory). I think that test will screen for personality disorders.
If you don't have a proper diagnosis, you can't get treatment that will help you feel better. I will say, if it's bipolar, you would PROBABLY have relatives with some kind of mental illness - that is a very genetic disorder. I just read today that only 30% of first diagnoses are correct - it is very difficult! But if it is bipolar, you should be on lithium, lamictal or some other mood stabilizer.
PS did you ever have a serious head injury.?Health Question & Answer
I really think you need to get away from seeing therapists only & see a psychiatrist too. also, you should see if your therapist thinks it would help your diagnosis to take the MMPI test (MN multiphasic personality inventory). I think that test will screen for personality disorders.
If you don't have a proper diagnosis, you can't get treatment that will help you feel better. I will say, if it's bipolar, you would PROBABLY have relatives with some kind of mental illness - that is a very genetic disorder. I just read today that only 30% of first diagnoses are correct - it is very difficult! But if it is bipolar, you should be on lithium, lamictal or some other mood stabilizer.
PS did you ever have a serious head injury.?Health Question & Answer
Are you getting preoper diet, proper exercise and proper rest.? That will not cure you, but you might be surprised how much better you will feel when that's all in place. Why wouldn't you want to keep trying meds.? It takes everyone a few tries to find the best one. I'm on Zoloft now, but I'm going to a psychiatrist next week to find a better solution for me. Maybe anti-psychotics, maybe a different SSRI, maybe different counseling techniques.
You can use herbs on your own. For anxiety, chamomile tea will help you get to sleep. For depression, St John's Wort is a natural SSRI. DOn't take it if you're taking another antidepressant. I believe you can even use herbs as mood stabilizers. If you truly have personality disorder, prayer will not fix it. I doubt prayer will fix the rest of it either, but I'm pretty cynical when it comes to religion anyway.
I know that you can get this under control. Make sure your counselors are hearing you. It's OK to tell them that you are getting frustrated with specific things. If you feel they're not listening to you, then maybe you haven't found the right counselor yet. Keep working. You can do it.Health Question & Answer
You can use herbs on your own. For anxiety, chamomile tea will help you get to sleep. For depression, St John's Wort is a natural SSRI. DOn't take it if you're taking another antidepressant. I believe you can even use herbs as mood stabilizers. If you truly have personality disorder, prayer will not fix it. I doubt prayer will fix the rest of it either, but I'm pretty cynical when it comes to religion anyway.
I know that you can get this under control. Make sure your counselors are hearing you. It's OK to tell them that you are getting frustrated with specific things. If you feel they're not listening to you, then maybe you haven't found the right counselor yet. Keep working. You can do it.Health Question & Answer