I have depression and really bad anxieties. Can ANYBODY relate to these symptoms/feelings? : *( I'm scared. ?!
Question: I have depression and really bad anxieties. Can ANYBODY relate to these symptoms/feelings.? : *( I'm scared. .?
So..i've had anxieties for YEARS. I'm only 21 but i've been anxious and paranoid since i was about 14, 15 years old. The past few years somer serious things have happened with my family and i've become even more anxious. Last year, i smoked week and it was really strong and i guess i took too many hits and freaked out and had a panic attack. After that, i never smoked weed again but i literally had a nervous breakdown that night. Then, last september i had my first panic attack and wound up in the hospital. They said it was anxieties and i was dehydrated and they sent me home.
Ever since then i've slowly started to lose myself. I'm almost 100% positive that i have depersonalization disorder, almost all the symptoms match up. I also had an emotionally abusive boyfriend who's honestly changed me as a person entirely. Anyways..to the point..the last couple months have been horrific. I feel like i have no idea who i am, at all. I don't feel real. I feel disconnected and cut off from EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. it's one of the scariest feelings i've ever experienced. I feel nothing. No emotions, nothing. My mind is a complete blank, i have no thoughts at all, which is totally ******* up my memory. I can't remember almost this entire year. Unless you tell me about something that happened [ then i pretty much remember it clearly] i can't even tell you what i did this year.
Now since I started feeling this way, everytime i go into work or go somewhere, it feels like the first time i'm at this place. Even my job, which i've been at for 8 months, feels different and unfamiliar to me. It feels like i no longer know who my boyfriend is, my family, my friends. I feel nothing towards them..which makes me feel like i don't know them. As horrible as these feelings are, theyre not the worst.
This is the WORST symptom i've ever experienced and i'm not sure if it's normal or not. The last week and a half i've had trouble with my speech. It's hard to explain but i'll try - everything i say, pretty much comes out clearly...it's not like i'm slurring words or anything. But it suddenly freaks me out to talk. It's like i dont understand how i'm able to talk, how i know words, how i know what they mean. The more i think about it, the more freaked out I get and i actually start to stutter and stumble over words. I have absolutely no connection to the words coming out of my mouth and it scares me. Even when i dont think about it, its weird for me to talk now that i started feeling this way. I can sound words out, but how am i doing it.? It feels like even though I'm doing it, I don't know how i'm doing it. I don't even know if that makes sense.
I feel like i'm disabled, like i can't function. All i keep thinking is that this is a brain tumor, and that's it. I don't have any other physical symptoms..i never get headaches, never throw up..never achey or sick. I have bronchitis and a cold right now but i still feel okay. I'm not sure if thats what started the whole talking thing off but its really bad now.
I've been going to therapy for about a month now, so far it hasn't done ****, and she says the talking thing is just another manifestation of anxiety but i dont know if that's true. I've never heard of that before. I'm going for a physical in a week and i'm getting a blood test and if the doctor think's somethings up..or if this talking thing continues i'm going to see a neurologist. But i just wanted to see if anyone can relate or if anyone's been through anything similiar. Please no scary or immature answers, I'm freaked out enough. Thanks guys, i know that was long <3Health Question & Answer
Ever since then i've slowly started to lose myself. I'm almost 100% positive that i have depersonalization disorder, almost all the symptoms match up. I also had an emotionally abusive boyfriend who's honestly changed me as a person entirely. Anyways..to the point..the last couple months have been horrific. I feel like i have no idea who i am, at all. I don't feel real. I feel disconnected and cut off from EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. it's one of the scariest feelings i've ever experienced. I feel nothing. No emotions, nothing. My mind is a complete blank, i have no thoughts at all, which is totally ******* up my memory. I can't remember almost this entire year. Unless you tell me about something that happened [ then i pretty much remember it clearly] i can't even tell you what i did this year.
Now since I started feeling this way, everytime i go into work or go somewhere, it feels like the first time i'm at this place. Even my job, which i've been at for 8 months, feels different and unfamiliar to me. It feels like i no longer know who my boyfriend is, my family, my friends. I feel nothing towards them..which makes me feel like i don't know them. As horrible as these feelings are, theyre not the worst.
This is the WORST symptom i've ever experienced and i'm not sure if it's normal or not. The last week and a half i've had trouble with my speech. It's hard to explain but i'll try - everything i say, pretty much comes out clearly...it's not like i'm slurring words or anything. But it suddenly freaks me out to talk. It's like i dont understand how i'm able to talk, how i know words, how i know what they mean. The more i think about it, the more freaked out I get and i actually start to stutter and stumble over words. I have absolutely no connection to the words coming out of my mouth and it scares me. Even when i dont think about it, its weird for me to talk now that i started feeling this way. I can sound words out, but how am i doing it.? It feels like even though I'm doing it, I don't know how i'm doing it. I don't even know if that makes sense.
I feel like i'm disabled, like i can't function. All i keep thinking is that this is a brain tumor, and that's it. I don't have any other physical symptoms..i never get headaches, never throw up..never achey or sick. I have bronchitis and a cold right now but i still feel okay. I'm not sure if thats what started the whole talking thing off but its really bad now.
I've been going to therapy for about a month now, so far it hasn't done ****, and she says the talking thing is just another manifestation of anxiety but i dont know if that's true. I've never heard of that before. I'm going for a physical in a week and i'm getting a blood test and if the doctor think's somethings up..or if this talking thing continues i'm going to see a neurologist. But i just wanted to see if anyone can relate or if anyone's been through anything similiar. Please no scary or immature answers, I'm freaked out enough. Thanks guys, i know that was long <3Health Question & Answer
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I feel for you. I think you have very valid reasons to be upset. I had a nervous breakdown in my middle 20's and till this day there is a year and a half that I have no memory of. I know I worked, ate, slept, socialized. But still I do not remember. I understand that is a coping mechanism that the brain uses sometimes to deal with stress. You mentioned talk therapy but are you on medication(s) as well.? If you aren't , it sounds as though you need more than talk therapy alone. If you are on meds. Sometimes it is the meds that can cause the symtoms you have mentioned. It is vitally important that you contact your doctor or phyciatrist right away. You may have to change to some other med. I would say you need help from a physchiatrist and your regular doctor and a neurologist. With some tests they can determine if these problems are physical and or mental. I suggest you make a copy of your question above and give to your doctor and impress the doc that you are unable to function and that you need some help now. Not 2 weeks, a month etc from now. Don't stand on ceremony. Sometimes you have to talk up doctors and let them know that you need some actHealth Question & Answer
Here is a resource I came across. I has a lot of catagories and covers a wide range of depression topics.
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prozac will definetly help. give it a MONTH to start workingHealth Question & Answer
pl. seek doctors helpHealth Question & Answer
Yes I have been there for a moment I thought I wrote this , because this sounded like me a year ago. I have had bad anxiety depression , abusive boyfriend for five years, bad childhood , worries of why I can't do certain things right. Over time I finally saw a a mental doctor who prescribes medication, which kind of helped me, but not totally. I have changed because of abusive boyfriend things freak me out when something reminds me of him still to this day. I can really relate to the depression anxiety and having doctors doing nothing. Then I got started getting frustrated, I started having really bad anxiety at work with some issues of getting hurt. I have found out to me that xanax has helped me. Another thing you may want to do is talk to a close friend. I know that a close friend may not understand a lot of it , but some one you can REALLy trust. if you want e-mail me . I know what you are going through you feel nothing but confused hurt ascadard out of your mind and its because your emotions have taken over you. Making you to stay distance from people. Keep a diary and write how you feel, then go back and read what you wrote over time and you can start finding your self back and get better ...Hang in there contact me if you want :) and keep your head up you are 21 think of the things you want to accomplish in life make small goals then make bigger goal on how to get through this.Health Question & Answer
I'm so sorry that you have all these things going on. I myself have an extensive history with mental illness brain trauma Pecos's personality disorder bipolar disorder and I've been on so many meds that if I look threw the pill book at Walgreen's I know more then 3 or 4 meds a freaking page.
I'm not an expert but I think if you find a safe place and make sure its quit. Sit or lay down. Listen to how you feel and let yourself feel the feelings. Journal and see a doctor. I cant type because of my painful joint. So i have to go. Again i'm so sorry and good luck.Health Question & Answer
I'm not an expert but I think if you find a safe place and make sure its quit. Sit or lay down. Listen to how you feel and let yourself feel the feelings. Journal and see a doctor. I cant type because of my painful joint. So i have to go. Again i'm so sorry and good luck.Health Question & Answer
Negative emotions (like sadness, stress, anger, etc.) causes your Serotonin production to be low; when your Serotonin level is low, you are more prone to getting Anxiety, Panic Attacks, Depression, etc.
Medication like Antidepressants (SSRI - Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor) helps to boost Serotonin level.
But there are natural ways to do it without medication. There's this strange herb called "St John's Wort" - it is said to be more effective than Prozac. No, it is not for mild depression only and ignore those sayings. In fact, it does help anxiety and panic-attacks as St John's Wort works like prozac. Other natural ways will be exercise, diet, more exposure to light, etc.
The problem is that, even if your Serotonin is balanced... you have that "learned behavior" in your mind. You need to break that initial cycle to destroy that learned behavior - Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT) does this. A technique that you can use without CBT will be Distraction... There are several other techniques to help cope them!
Ok, to use Distraction: Firstly, try to....
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Medication like Antidepressants (SSRI - Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor) helps to boost Serotonin level.
But there are natural ways to do it without medication. There's this strange herb called "St John's Wort" - it is said to be more effective than Prozac. No, it is not for mild depression only and ignore those sayings. In fact, it does help anxiety and panic-attacks as St John's Wort works like prozac. Other natural ways will be exercise, diet, more exposure to light, etc.
The problem is that, even if your Serotonin is balanced... you have that "learned behavior" in your mind. You need to break that initial cycle to destroy that learned behavior - Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT) does this. A technique that you can use without CBT will be Distraction... There are several other techniques to help cope them!
Ok, to use Distraction: Firstly, try to....
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I had a friend of mine in an emotionally abusive situation her boyfriend made her feel like she was not good enough she was worthless etc...
When she was around him she became shy, stuttered and jumbled up her words. When he or any body else would point it out it would get worse. Eventually he ended up arrested which gave her the excuse she needed to dump him. Once she did she got better. You maybe distancing yourself as a defense mechanism. ie if I don't get close I won't be hurt. As far as therapy goes realize that this is not going to get fixed in one or two sessions (Sorry). It sounds like you have a lot of issues and what the counciller or thearpist is going to do is help you work through these issues. They can not solve your problems for you, what they will do is discuss options choices and try to let you work through the issues one at a time. If you do not like him/her then maybe you can discuss seeing someone else in the group/office. If you end up going the medicine route with councilling realize that some medicines have to take time to get in the system and start working. I know from experience I have depression and I would get on a medicine and be on it for month maybe or two then quit because it was not working. Finally my doctor pointed this out to me. I have been depression free for about a year now. I still have bad days but not bad months.Health Question & Answer
When she was around him she became shy, stuttered and jumbled up her words. When he or any body else would point it out it would get worse. Eventually he ended up arrested which gave her the excuse she needed to dump him. Once she did she got better. You maybe distancing yourself as a defense mechanism. ie if I don't get close I won't be hurt. As far as therapy goes realize that this is not going to get fixed in one or two sessions (Sorry). It sounds like you have a lot of issues and what the counciller or thearpist is going to do is help you work through these issues. They can not solve your problems for you, what they will do is discuss options choices and try to let you work through the issues one at a time. If you do not like him/her then maybe you can discuss seeing someone else in the group/office. If you end up going the medicine route with councilling realize that some medicines have to take time to get in the system and start working. I know from experience I have depression and I would get on a medicine and be on it for month maybe or two then quit because it was not working. Finally my doctor pointed this out to me. I have been depression free for about a year now. I still have bad days but not bad months.Health Question & Answer