I don't know what to do, im not ready to get help but im afraid im going to die. what should i do?!
Question: I don't know what to do, im not ready to get help but im afraid im going to die. what should i do.?
ive been binging and purging and throwing up after all my meals and abusing laxatives for a while, but im beginning to see blood in my vomit, and im scared im going to like die or something. im not ready to get help, because if i do, and i slip u on my diet, i wont have a way to get rid of the stuff and i need to get to 105 pounds. i don't know what to do anymore. Health Question & Answer
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listen, you really should be afraid. what you are doing is going to systematically destroy your life, figuratively AND literally if you don't get help to control your illness.
your bulimia is not only a reaction to your deluded ideas about your weight. there is a lot more going on than simply chasing after your ideal body image, so i kno it seems scary to think about not having the safety net of purging to help you manage your feelings. you don't say how old you are, or how long you've been having these destructive behaviors, but the fact that you are seeing physical evidence of the damage of your bingeing and purging cycle is enough to make me think you've been at it quite a while. that is going to make it a lot harder to get healthy, but you CAN do it.
try to understand that when you get help, the doctor will most likely not tell you on Day One to 'stop'. you are going to need a lot of therapy to get to that point. what your therapist will probably do is, over time, give you the tools you need so that you can handle your feelings in a more healthy way so that you will not need to binge and purge to cope.
i strongly urge you to seek professional help if you want to live a long life because right now you are on the fast track to destroying yourself. i apologize for speaking in such stark terms, but your disease is no joke. a childhood friend of mine suffered from bulimia for some 15 years before getting help. she was sick our entire friendship up until then (having starting showing bulimic behaviors at age 12) so i got a front row seat to help life and body falling apart. the physical ramifications are startling; bloody vomit, severe acne (from lacking nourishment) to terrible cramping, very abnormal and/or absent menstrual cycles, oral deterioration/loss of teeth and sometimes the inability to conceive (luckily my friend got help and recovered before this last one and has two sons!) and of course, death. your relationships will also likely fall apart due to the secrecy and deception you need to employ in order to continue your behaviors and as your illness becomes more and more severe. the toll this sickness takes on relationships is devastating.
so. please take your disease seriously. you need to get into therapy in order to build a healthy life for yourself. once you take the first step, you will have something to build ON. good luck, take care.Health Question & Answer
your bulimia is not only a reaction to your deluded ideas about your weight. there is a lot more going on than simply chasing after your ideal body image, so i kno it seems scary to think about not having the safety net of purging to help you manage your feelings. you don't say how old you are, or how long you've been having these destructive behaviors, but the fact that you are seeing physical evidence of the damage of your bingeing and purging cycle is enough to make me think you've been at it quite a while. that is going to make it a lot harder to get healthy, but you CAN do it.
try to understand that when you get help, the doctor will most likely not tell you on Day One to 'stop'. you are going to need a lot of therapy to get to that point. what your therapist will probably do is, over time, give you the tools you need so that you can handle your feelings in a more healthy way so that you will not need to binge and purge to cope.
i strongly urge you to seek professional help if you want to live a long life because right now you are on the fast track to destroying yourself. i apologize for speaking in such stark terms, but your disease is no joke. a childhood friend of mine suffered from bulimia for some 15 years before getting help. she was sick our entire friendship up until then (having starting showing bulimic behaviors at age 12) so i got a front row seat to help life and body falling apart. the physical ramifications are startling; bloody vomit, severe acne (from lacking nourishment) to terrible cramping, very abnormal and/or absent menstrual cycles, oral deterioration/loss of teeth and sometimes the inability to conceive (luckily my friend got help and recovered before this last one and has two sons!) and of course, death. your relationships will also likely fall apart due to the secrecy and deception you need to employ in order to continue your behaviors and as your illness becomes more and more severe. the toll this sickness takes on relationships is devastating.
so. please take your disease seriously. you need to get into therapy in order to build a healthy life for yourself. once you take the first step, you will have something to build ON. good luck, take care.Health Question & Answer
If you want to lose weight, binging and purging is NOT the way to do it. It is dangerous and it is what people who are bulimic do. It damages your throat from all the hydrochloric acid (stomach) acid and can make you bleed which can upset your stomach. You should consult your doctor for what ever your problem is and find the best, SAFEST, way of doing it. There are other ways, so don't hurt yourself because what ever you are trying to accomplish, isn't worth it. Health Question & Answer
What you're describing isn't healthy, in fact, it's a disorder known as Bulimia, and can be fatal. Not only are you not getting nutrition, you are also filling your esophagus with stomach acid, which is burning away at it. The damage to your stomach lining and digestive tract might be permanent. Getting yourself thinner than paper is not worth you dying over, and you are already seriously hurting yourself. I urge you to see a doctor, because there health risks are so high. And stop purging.Health Question & Answer
Well, what do you think that blood in your vomit means.? Did you cut your throat when you stuck your finger in there.? Be more careful next time. You might have to let that heal before you purge again. How much do you weigh now.? Are you close to 105.? You might lose more weight if you let it go out the other end like it is supposed to because that is where your weight is. You purge you take out the nutrients that your body needs. I bet you look wonderful.Health Question & Answer
your asking to die.i used to be anneroxic and i almost did.okay hun..105 pounds isnt healthy.and if you think that then you need to look at people in real life.not magazines.after taking laxatives and you quit your body wotn me able to take a dump without them.you should stop now.and start eating gradually without throwing up.it will help u in the long run, believe me.and your esophgus is probably raw and ate up because of the acid.and your immune system is failing.the only one that can help u is urself.take charge.Health Question & Answer
im in the very exact same place as u are i have no answers but im replying to promise u one thing your not alone. my bmi is 15 ive asked for and been refused help and im scared that there will become a point were i also will die because of this even after taking an overdose recently i was still not given any help but at the same time im not ready for help i just want them to help me enough to help me stay alive Health Question & Answer
just don't purge... i know it isn't that easy but if you want to stop badly enough then you will be able to. your exercise and diet is good to maintain 105 lbs, but not if you throw up. by the way laxatives don't help at all, they just give you horrible stomachaches and hurt you later on. the calories are already absorbed by the time they go through. Health Question & Answer
You should like you have a real problem and need assistance whether you want it or not before you do really DIE. I strongly suggest that you go and get help before someone forces help on you. You must really want to die to say you are not ready for help yet...do you have a death wish.?.?.?.?
Be a responsible healthy person and get the help you need before it is too late. Good LuckHealth Question & Answer
Be a responsible healthy person and get the help you need before it is too late. Good LuckHealth Question & Answer
No one over the age of 15 needs to weigh 105 pounds, so why exactly do you have to reach that weight. You sound like a classic case of bulimia. Once you reach 105 you will decide you need to weigh 95 and so on. 1100 Calories a day is wayyy too little food for a normal person. Get some help fast or you really will die.Health Question & Answer
Ok, you are counteracting your own efforts here. By binging and purging, you are not teaching your body what it needs to do to lose the weight and keep it off. If you were to lose 105 pounds this way (doubt that is going to happen on this plan), you would gain it back very fast. Is that what you want.? I don't think it is. Your obsessive behavior is probably not your fault, but you need to see it for what it is. You need to go to your doctor and get on anti-depressants - ask for an SSRI type of anti-depressant as this helps with obsessive behavior. A side effect of the drug is that you will probably lose weight too. If that seems to hard to you, there is a supplement called 5-HTP which does pretty much the same thing. Finally, there is always St. John's Wort, although it's hard to find a good brand of that in this country. I really encourage you to get help. You have recognized the problem, that's the first step. Now, getting help is not going to keep you from losing the weight. If anything, it will help you lose it faster and keep it off, because you're not going to do that with your current plan. One more thing. The treadmill is good, but an hour is counterproductive. Learn about interval training. It is more effective and only takes about 10-20 minutes a day. All the best!Health Question & Answer
What diet.? I heard no mention of a diet, unless vomiting is your diet. No dictionary includes vomiting as part of a diet. It's a fact.
You do need help, and if you want to weigh 105 pounds (pretty damn small), you need an actual diet and workout regiment instead of a barf-festival. Stop binging and there won't be a need to purge.
Purging disorder makes you slightly more unattractive than the fat you think you have would. Get help.
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1100 Calories is 'bout 900 less than the recommended average, and if you keep purging, it doesn't really matter how much you take in. Get up to around 2000, keep with the exercise, and cancel your daily purge.
If you continue at this rate, you will die; either from malnutrition or stomach-acids eating you from the inside.
If you stick to the treadmill and eat healthy amounts of healthy foods, you metabolism will pick up and keep you thin. As of now, your metabolism is dying. As soon as the weight is gone, as soon as you stop purging, it will come back, unless you lose it in a natural way.Health Question & Answer
You do need help, and if you want to weigh 105 pounds (pretty damn small), you need an actual diet and workout regiment instead of a barf-festival. Stop binging and there won't be a need to purge.
Purging disorder makes you slightly more unattractive than the fat you think you have would. Get help.
Edit for new information:
1100 Calories is 'bout 900 less than the recommended average, and if you keep purging, it doesn't really matter how much you take in. Get up to around 2000, keep with the exercise, and cancel your daily purge.
If you continue at this rate, you will die; either from malnutrition or stomach-acids eating you from the inside.
If you stick to the treadmill and eat healthy amounts of healthy foods, you metabolism will pick up and keep you thin. As of now, your metabolism is dying. As soon as the weight is gone, as soon as you stop purging, it will come back, unless you lose it in a natural way.Health Question & Answer
Okay, umm your life is A LOT more important than your weight!! You'd rather die than not be 105 pounds.? Sort out your priorities. If you think this is that serious and all that is keeping you from getting help is worry about your WEIGHT, GO GET HELP NOW!! Seriously, if people are making fun of you and calling you fat, then you can tell them to go f*** ..or in other words tell them go dance on rooftops casting magical spells at each other while singing and dancing and doing cartwheels. I am so disgusted with people for what they value and how they treat people, and also the stupid crap media. SERIOUSLY, and if anyone does anything mean to you they are rude fat b*****s and a******** and don't listen to them. If you're beating up on yourself for your weight, and its just you, you probably need to go get some help, probably from a psychologist in addition to a doctor. There are also LONG TERM health problems for not eating like that. YOU can ruin your spine or your organs and stuff.
If your parents are the type that will help you, find a time and talk to them. If you are afraid to talk to a parent here is a list of hotlines on website
http://www.pamf.org/teen/hotlines.html#e...
never used them don't know how well they work
if you want more you can try to google hotlines or something
Oh, and by the way, I am 105 pounds about, and I cannot gain weight. I consider myself very, very thin, almost TOO thin and I wish I could weigh more. I'm at an unhealthy weight and I should most likely weigh more. I don't know what your height is but that is an unrealistic goal, probably. You look a LOT healthier if you are not skin and bone thin. Health Question & Answer
If your parents are the type that will help you, find a time and talk to them. If you are afraid to talk to a parent here is a list of hotlines on website
http://www.pamf.org/teen/hotlines.html#e...
never used them don't know how well they work
if you want more you can try to google hotlines or something
Oh, and by the way, I am 105 pounds about, and I cannot gain weight. I consider myself very, very thin, almost TOO thin and I wish I could weigh more. I'm at an unhealthy weight and I should most likely weigh more. I don't know what your height is but that is an unrealistic goal, probably. You look a LOT healthier if you are not skin and bone thin. Health Question & Answer