I feel terrible. Please help. ?!
Question: I feel terrible. Please help. .?
In mid-September, after a painful period where I ran around academic advisors, career websites, and councelling, I have finally decided to switch my major (I am in third year and going into something completely different, switching from social sciences into science). I feel good about this, and I feel that this is where I should have always been, and I would have, had I not listened to my parents.
Now, the problem is, however, that after that initial "crisis" I never got my life back on track: even though I am in transition and taking science classes now, I am not motivated in sciences nor social sciences anymore. I used to be so passionate about studying and what I was learning in class, and now I just don't see the point anymore: the truth is, I don't feel like doing ANYTHING anymore.
I procrastinate all the time, I am failing assignment after assignment, both social sciences and science ones, and I don't see a way out. I just feel so crappy all the time. And I know this may seem funny because after all I don't REALLY have a reason for feeling like this, but this only makes it harder to endure. I have lost my goals in life and I don't know why I keep going.
I don't even know why I am publishing this on here. I can't talk to my parents: they won't understand, can't be worried, and must continue thinking of me as strong. My best friend is in another province, and in any case, is way too absorbed in her own life right now, boyfriend and all. Other friends, well, they are just not the type that would understand: I know it because I have lost a couple of them that just started looking at me as if I was a psycho after I told them of my depression in first year.
So there I am, pouring it all out on the Internet. God, I am pathetic.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I went into councelling but I stopped it a week ago: I constantly had the feeling that my therapist was thinking that I am a faker, or something. Besides, I don't like her anyways.
I wish I knew why this is happening and how to get out of this.Health Question & Answer
Now, the problem is, however, that after that initial "crisis" I never got my life back on track: even though I am in transition and taking science classes now, I am not motivated in sciences nor social sciences anymore. I used to be so passionate about studying and what I was learning in class, and now I just don't see the point anymore: the truth is, I don't feel like doing ANYTHING anymore.
I procrastinate all the time, I am failing assignment after assignment, both social sciences and science ones, and I don't see a way out. I just feel so crappy all the time. And I know this may seem funny because after all I don't REALLY have a reason for feeling like this, but this only makes it harder to endure. I have lost my goals in life and I don't know why I keep going.
I don't even know why I am publishing this on here. I can't talk to my parents: they won't understand, can't be worried, and must continue thinking of me as strong. My best friend is in another province, and in any case, is way too absorbed in her own life right now, boyfriend and all. Other friends, well, they are just not the type that would understand: I know it because I have lost a couple of them that just started looking at me as if I was a psycho after I told them of my depression in first year.
So there I am, pouring it all out on the Internet. God, I am pathetic.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I went into councelling but I stopped it a week ago: I constantly had the feeling that my therapist was thinking that I am a faker, or something. Besides, I don't like her anyways.
I wish I knew why this is happening and how to get out of this.Health Question & Answer
Answers:
You share a common problem.
You know what you don't want, but don't know what you do want. The people around you clearly want what you don't so can't understand you questioning your direction in life.
Perhaps it's time to backtrack to the point where you took the wrong turn and try again rather than constantly changing direction hoping to find your way.Health Question & Answer
You know what you don't want, but don't know what you do want. The people around you clearly want what you don't so can't understand you questioning your direction in life.
Perhaps it's time to backtrack to the point where you took the wrong turn and try again rather than constantly changing direction hoping to find your way.Health Question & Answer
The answer is pretty simple, you are experimenting depression and anxiety. You fear things for no reason, that is why you don`t have goals anymore.
You are kind off left out of the life cycle. I felt the same for more than 4 years and finally managed to overcome my depression and anxiety, things in my case were even worse, I had panic attacks even 4 times a day. Noting and nobody could do anything about it..
You aren`t happy with your own life.. your career...
Go on and read my story.. and see how iI managed to overcome my anxiety and go on with my life..
http://www.relief-anxiety.info/index1
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You are kind off left out of the life cycle. I felt the same for more than 4 years and finally managed to overcome my depression and anxiety, things in my case were even worse, I had panic attacks even 4 times a day. Noting and nobody could do anything about it..
You aren`t happy with your own life.. your career...
Go on and read my story.. and see how iI managed to overcome my anxiety and go on with my life..
http://www.relief-anxiety.info/index1
Health Question & Answer