Am I falling back into my Eating Disorder?!
Question: Am I falling back into my Eating Disorder.?
I know that I have been slipping lately, but is my slip really that much of a fall.?
I am (female) and currently weigh around 110 - 115 at 5'3", 25" waist ... and I know that that is a healthy weight, but I think I am fat... and I count calories, and I have been so scared to eat things I used to enjoy lately. I try to challenge myself to eat M&Ms or something (to make my mother happy) but it is so hard. My mom wants me to weigh around 120 (because I work out a lot, I run, yoga, etc ...) and says that I look too thin at 112 ... I don't know. I am really scared. I round my calories up; I feel guilty if I don't run 8 miles a day or do my core exercises; I hate it if I weigh anywhere above 112... and I've just been slipping, slipping, slipping. Not in weight, but mentally. I just FEEL SOOOOO FAT! And I just ate M&Ms to make my mother feel better about what I am eating, but now I hate myself... I don't know what to do. I cannot run this week because I have a stress fracture in my foot, etc, etc ...
Who should I listen to.? I love my mother and know she is right, but I cannot bring myself to trust her ... would I be okay if I did gain a *bit* of weight.? Should I really be this stressed out.? Will I be okay not exercising for a week.? It's only been one day and I'm going crazy!
Thanks for putting up with me, guys.Health Question & Answer
I am (female) and currently weigh around 110 - 115 at 5'3", 25" waist ... and I know that that is a healthy weight, but I think I am fat... and I count calories, and I have been so scared to eat things I used to enjoy lately. I try to challenge myself to eat M&Ms or something (to make my mother happy) but it is so hard. My mom wants me to weigh around 120 (because I work out a lot, I run, yoga, etc ...) and says that I look too thin at 112 ... I don't know. I am really scared. I round my calories up; I feel guilty if I don't run 8 miles a day or do my core exercises; I hate it if I weigh anywhere above 112... and I've just been slipping, slipping, slipping. Not in weight, but mentally. I just FEEL SOOOOO FAT! And I just ate M&Ms to make my mother feel better about what I am eating, but now I hate myself... I don't know what to do. I cannot run this week because I have a stress fracture in my foot, etc, etc ...
Who should I listen to.? I love my mother and know she is right, but I cannot bring myself to trust her ... would I be okay if I did gain a *bit* of weight.? Should I really be this stressed out.? Will I be okay not exercising for a week.? It's only been one day and I'm going crazy!
Thanks for putting up with me, guys.Health Question & Answer
Answers:
Not exercising for week isn't a problem at all, especially since you're been working out so hard! Your metabolism will keep going strong for a long time, so don't worry about that. As for the eating - yes, please listen to your mother. I know the problem with anorexics is that they see themselves as fat when no one else does. So try this: ask people you know and trust if they think you're fat. When all of them tell you that you aren't, isn't that evidence that you really aren't fat, and it's just the way you feel.?
I know what a struggle diet issues can be - I'm not anorexic but I'm a type 2 diabetic and always have to be conscious of what I eat. It's ironic, isn't it - I'd like to eat the things you don't want to eat! Please go ahead and eat those M&M's, and enjoy them!! :)Health Question & Answer
I know what a struggle diet issues can be - I'm not anorexic but I'm a type 2 diabetic and always have to be conscious of what I eat. It's ironic, isn't it - I'd like to eat the things you don't want to eat! Please go ahead and eat those M&M's, and enjoy them!! :)Health Question & Answer
Yes, it is very possible you are falling back into an eating disorder, but it sounds like the beginning stages. Try talking to a therapist to help you overcome or prevent a relapse. Exercising too much is also a symptom of an eating disorder. You should only exercise a few days a week, not every day. Health Question & Answer
Hey there --
Yes, it would be entirely ok for you to gain some weight. I am so, so sorry you are going through all of this, I know it majorly sucks. But, my dear, I think that you are very much still eating disordered. Your head sounds to be not the greatest place to be right now. I would suggest listening to your mum -- it really sounds like she has your best interest at heart.
No, you shouldn't be so stressed out about this, but it is understandable considering the strenth that the ED has. You will be completely fine for not exercising for just one week.
I do hope you are seeing a psychiatrist and are being followed by a physician .?.?
It sounds like although you are rather tortured you are still really trying. THat is great. Remember it takes time to fully recover from this thing.
Take care !!Health Question & Answer
Yes, it would be entirely ok for you to gain some weight. I am so, so sorry you are going through all of this, I know it majorly sucks. But, my dear, I think that you are very much still eating disordered. Your head sounds to be not the greatest place to be right now. I would suggest listening to your mum -- it really sounds like she has your best interest at heart.
No, you shouldn't be so stressed out about this, but it is understandable considering the strenth that the ED has. You will be completely fine for not exercising for just one week.
I do hope you are seeing a psychiatrist and are being followed by a physician .?.?
It sounds like although you are rather tortured you are still really trying. THat is great. Remember it takes time to fully recover from this thing.
Take care !!Health Question & Answer