Am I insane, I don't know what to do.?!
Question: Am I insane, I don't know what to do..?
I think way too much into detail. I worry possibly a paranoia problem. My mind is racing all the time on how to improve what I am doing. Right now as I'm typing I'm enjoying the satisfying clicks of each button. It's soothing to hear myself tap away at the keyboard. That might mean I'm also a narcissist. I do look in the mirror a lot. I don't know why I do. I'm not much of a sight to see. I constantly think about the lines from a song called Time by Pink Floyd. The lyrics are: Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an off hand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way
Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun
And you run and you run to catch up with the sun, but its sinking
And racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in the relative way, but youre older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death
Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the english way
The time is gone, the song is over, thought Id something more to say
Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
And when I come home cold and tired
Its good to warm my bones beside the fire
Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells.
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These lyrics make so much sense and I feel like this is my life. I always try to catch up with sun...or anything but it always sinks. My motivation always sinks into a pit of despair and dullness with the doldrums of life. "How do I tackle this.?" I am constantly asking. I was smoking weed one day and came home fell asleep the next day I felt dizzy and completely out of it. I was reading and studying things in this state and I enjoyed it. I wasn't high but I felt relaxed and somewhat happy. For some reason though I wrote this in my notes: "People question other peoples motives and thirst for knowledge. I question why it matters to them. Maybe their the ones who should be questioned. They need to look inside and question their own motives. Maybe the people who are put down do what they do because they need to. Maybe it's not because they want to do the things they do, maybe it's because they have to. What's wrong with saying black if someone else wants white. What's wrong with saying: 'No I will not conform.'.? I'm glad a lot of people admit their problems or know them. But that's not enough. They still question. They need to stop. Listen, look at the world. Then they need to see after they look. Then when they see they will realize. Upon realization they will understand and once they understand... Their need for questions will subside. And when they have a question they will first ask themselves this: 'Am I not like them.? And should it matter.?"
See I right really weird things. I don't know what to do. Now I feel like I'm trying to be insane. Maybe I'm conforming by posting this on the internet. Maybe I'm pathetic because I can't fix myself without help. But I just can't do it. The sun is sinking and I don't know how to catch it. Am I doing this because I have nothing better to do.? Do I really have no life.? Am I saying all of this to get the image I'm insane.? What the hell am I doing. I don't wanna make people less of me. I hate that. I don't want you to judge me please don't. I don't want to judge you. So am I ****** up.? Please help...Just help.Health Question & Answer
You fritter and waste the hours in an off hand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way
Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun
And you run and you run to catch up with the sun, but its sinking
And racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in the relative way, but youre older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death
Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the english way
The time is gone, the song is over, thought Id something more to say
Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
And when I come home cold and tired
Its good to warm my bones beside the fire
Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells.
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These lyrics make so much sense and I feel like this is my life. I always try to catch up with sun...or anything but it always sinks. My motivation always sinks into a pit of despair and dullness with the doldrums of life. "How do I tackle this.?" I am constantly asking. I was smoking weed one day and came home fell asleep the next day I felt dizzy and completely out of it. I was reading and studying things in this state and I enjoyed it. I wasn't high but I felt relaxed and somewhat happy. For some reason though I wrote this in my notes: "People question other peoples motives and thirst for knowledge. I question why it matters to them. Maybe their the ones who should be questioned. They need to look inside and question their own motives. Maybe the people who are put down do what they do because they need to. Maybe it's not because they want to do the things they do, maybe it's because they have to. What's wrong with saying black if someone else wants white. What's wrong with saying: 'No I will not conform.'.? I'm glad a lot of people admit their problems or know them. But that's not enough. They still question. They need to stop. Listen, look at the world. Then they need to see after they look. Then when they see they will realize. Upon realization they will understand and once they understand... Their need for questions will subside. And when they have a question they will first ask themselves this: 'Am I not like them.? And should it matter.?"
See I right really weird things. I don't know what to do. Now I feel like I'm trying to be insane. Maybe I'm conforming by posting this on the internet. Maybe I'm pathetic because I can't fix myself without help. But I just can't do it. The sun is sinking and I don't know how to catch it. Am I doing this because I have nothing better to do.? Do I really have no life.? Am I saying all of this to get the image I'm insane.? What the hell am I doing. I don't wanna make people less of me. I hate that. I don't want you to judge me please don't. I don't want to judge you. So am I ****** up.? Please help...Just help.Health Question & Answer
Answers:
Dude, you are not insane...and I wouldn't ever judge you for being you, who the hell would I be to act like an *** and judge someone's ways...seems like everyone always judges me...
you know, I know how you feel when it comes to the whole "soothed feeling of the clicking keys as you type"...I am kinda like that myself...I almost put myself to sleep when I play my piano, not because of the music, but the feeling of fingers gently playing...
Personally, I know how you feel...I look in the mirror a lot myself, and quite frankly, I am not too sure why, either...I prefer not to see me, just the simple mezmorization of the mirror...fascinating in its own way...
For some reason I tend to read through song lyrics in my head a lot...Sort of comforting to hear these lyrics that mean so much to me...and I worship these words every day...Chasing after a sinking sun seems so perfect since (in my eyes), it shows how I work so so hard for nothing...
You know, when you wrote that line about people questioning someone's motives and thirst for learning...it interested me..when you think about it, you are right about how they should just question themselves...
I think along the same path as you, and I sometimes feel that my thoughts are really weird, but I dunno...
But, you are not pathetic, and what is there to fix.?
If you could fix who you are, then what would be left.? You are someone who can question the ways of people and notice how idiotic and chaotic they are, and you pay attention to the small things, something most people don't take the time to do since people are too damn lazy...If you fix yourself, you would just be like all the other people that could give less of a sh*t...you don't need to change, man...
you are fine the way you are...
If you needed help because you were crazy, then so would I, cause this means I am f***** up, too.
F*** all these people who say you are crazy...They need to smell the sh*t on their knees...
This is the most meaningful post I have ever answered.Health Question & Answer
you know, I know how you feel when it comes to the whole "soothed feeling of the clicking keys as you type"...I am kinda like that myself...I almost put myself to sleep when I play my piano, not because of the music, but the feeling of fingers gently playing...
Personally, I know how you feel...I look in the mirror a lot myself, and quite frankly, I am not too sure why, either...I prefer not to see me, just the simple mezmorization of the mirror...fascinating in its own way...
For some reason I tend to read through song lyrics in my head a lot...Sort of comforting to hear these lyrics that mean so much to me...and I worship these words every day...Chasing after a sinking sun seems so perfect since (in my eyes), it shows how I work so so hard for nothing...
You know, when you wrote that line about people questioning someone's motives and thirst for learning...it interested me..when you think about it, you are right about how they should just question themselves...
I think along the same path as you, and I sometimes feel that my thoughts are really weird, but I dunno...
But, you are not pathetic, and what is there to fix.?
If you could fix who you are, then what would be left.? You are someone who can question the ways of people and notice how idiotic and chaotic they are, and you pay attention to the small things, something most people don't take the time to do since people are too damn lazy...If you fix yourself, you would just be like all the other people that could give less of a sh*t...you don't need to change, man...
you are fine the way you are...
If you needed help because you were crazy, then so would I, cause this means I am f***** up, too.
F*** all these people who say you are crazy...They need to smell the sh*t on their knees...
This is the most meaningful post I have ever answered.Health Question & Answer
Maybe you are just an artist and like to see the world differently and express yourself differently. Health Question & Answer
just remember.. someone else wrote that song. so if you can relate, means someone has already been through that.
and that band had a long life. and so will you.
find something else you enjoy.
my mind races also
and i also like the clicks of the type writer (but not my comp.)
anyways.
try out a herbal supplement FDA APproved. called
anxietol-7
will help you out.
it has helped me out.Health Question & Answer
and that band had a long life. and so will you.
find something else you enjoy.
my mind races also
and i also like the clicks of the type writer (but not my comp.)
anyways.
try out a herbal supplement FDA APproved. called
anxietol-7
will help you out.
it has helped me out.Health Question & Answer
No, you're not insane, I feel the same way sometimes if not worse. I think by writing all that you just want someone to hear you. every human wants to be heard and to tell thei story, and I don't believe there is something drastically wrong with you unless you absolutely believe that you are insane. I also think that weed is not the way even though it can take you away from this world for a while, it is not safe nor healthy for if you're young you have a long way to go..and many possiblities to change.
I think you're just trying to find your way in life. i'm 18 and I feel mess up a lot, I hate this world and the people in it at times, even though I try to be nice to everybody, I secretly feel very bitter and sad at humanity. I know how people are. Some would just be cruel about it and curse you off when you tell them your problems and the others would be all nosy about it and feel sorry for you, I hate that. That's why i keep my problems to myself and only hope that I can pull myself out. I beive that you can do the same for yourself. You should love yourself first above all things and remember that you're not alone and there are others out there who are feeling much worse that you.
And no I don't judge you nor nor anyone who actually have a mental disease because they are humans too and we all fight our own battle in life, it sucks, but I know you can pull yourself out of whatever preoblem you're going through, because admitting it is the first step.
good luck and i wish you all the best :)Health Question & Answer
I think you're just trying to find your way in life. i'm 18 and I feel mess up a lot, I hate this world and the people in it at times, even though I try to be nice to everybody, I secretly feel very bitter and sad at humanity. I know how people are. Some would just be cruel about it and curse you off when you tell them your problems and the others would be all nosy about it and feel sorry for you, I hate that. That's why i keep my problems to myself and only hope that I can pull myself out. I beive that you can do the same for yourself. You should love yourself first above all things and remember that you're not alone and there are others out there who are feeling much worse that you.
And no I don't judge you nor nor anyone who actually have a mental disease because they are humans too and we all fight our own battle in life, it sucks, but I know you can pull yourself out of whatever preoblem you're going through, because admitting it is the first step.
good luck and i wish you all the best :)Health Question & Answer
You definitely are not insane. You may be depressed maybe bipolar which would explain your extreme ups and downs. It sounds as if this is truly affecting your life. You need to see a psychiatrist and get a diagnosis and treatment if needed. As people who are depressed are you spend to much time and thoughts about yourself. this is part of the disease. There is help, you don't have to live like this. Go for some help. When talking about your problems don't leave out any details so that your doctor will understand all that is going on with you. If you are a teenage this may just be a part of growing up but it is affecting you so severely I hope you will have this checked out. You definitely are a very intelligent young man.Health Question & Answer
man...i would start by quitting the pot...it just kills your brain, that could possibly be the reason for your so called...insanity. i think you just need to take a chill pill, dont freak out, your not insane. your obviously really smart, maybe writing would help you.. since you obviously enjoyed writing this extremely long question, consider writing a book or keeping a journal, it helps to clear your mind. talk to a friend, someone you can trust, you know God is always there for you too. all you have to do is ask Him:)Health Question & Answer
Dude see a professional, i didnt even read that whole load of **** that you wrote. Get some help you need more help than from just some random people you dont even know off the web. GET SOME HELP!!Health Question & Answer
Hell i love that song because i'm stuck at home over a year recovering from a road trauma.
The truly insane don't believe they are.
So just chill, enjoy your tapping on the keyboard (unless it says 'i am the destroyer of worlds and will kill them all') and find some other activity to ease your mind.
Really you sound over sensetive so try not to fret too much and just accept things happen.Health Question & Answer
The truly insane don't believe they are.
So just chill, enjoy your tapping on the keyboard (unless it says 'i am the destroyer of worlds and will kill them all') and find some other activity to ease your mind.
Really you sound over sensetive so try not to fret too much and just accept things happen.Health Question & Answer