Hopelessness in myself, but I believe in you?!
Question: Hopelessness in myself, but I believe in you.?
I know that the answer, if such exists, I'll find on my own. Sometimes it feels like I'm "done" here. Just lonely, I spend day...hours in my room...it's easy for me to make new "friends", but I sense no real connection, and those that I felt it with pushed me away. And there's no hope left, sometimes the inside of my head, the grayness, that veil, takes over my eyes, mixes in with what I see, and headache comes. I tried talking to all of the closest people about this, but they either judge, say I'm immature, say meet new people (yeah I did, they just made it worse), but no real answers. They make me feel sort of like an alien or "strange". I'm not abnormal, I can reason. I can't have the luxury of a psychiatrist, so no thanks to drugs. And believe me, I do have interests, I like to draw, things I make keep me company. Typing this calmed me down, the headache did go away, I don't even have to post it anymore, that pre-breakdown monster is tamed, but it'll be back, never goes away completely. I guess I should say something with a question mark. So, seriously, how are you.?Health Question & Answer
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I wouldn't be a caring person if I didn't respond to you- i am not a medical professional, but I have had dealings with depression, manic episodes, bi-polar disorder, and personality disorders as well. I am not an advocate for meds-cause you can become dependent upon them- and thats dangerous. I dont know your age- but it sounds like you do need help- do you have any type of insurance.? or does anyone have insurance for you.? Do you drive.? can someone take you to a mental health facility.? Those facilities do help- and they give you exercises and options- you may want to look into something called community support in your town-which is done by a paraprofessional- those people help you to find your way and get back into society- make friends by going on outtings with you and networking.
try and write a poem if youre in to that- and free your mind on paper, Pray to God if your religious.. I know some of what your going through- I used to have those same thoughts. My own family used to think I was just wanting attention-but i was trying o reach out before anything serious happend. Go to a church and request to speak with a leader of a church facility- they are helpful as well- just remember- all those professionals have to maintain privacy until you say you are going to harm yourself-once you say that- then they may take matters into their own hands- if thats what you need then by all means go for the help. take a relaxing bath/shower-listen to some classical music or light jazz-cause they dont have words to make you think- just relaxing music-get online and paly a game on yahoo or pogo if i may- it's free and i find that monopoly is a great game- hope i gave you some type of positve direction- it will work out for you-just when things seem like they cant get any worst- GOD will open doors for you and put positive people in your life-God has something better for you- you can be a testimony to someone else and help others- work doing charity work- you'll make friends and network-also it will give you something to do- Hope this helped- and remember. I am not a medical professional-i am just giving some helpful advise- it is ultimately your choice- but I am sure you will be fine and make a positive decisionHealth Question & Answer
try and write a poem if youre in to that- and free your mind on paper, Pray to God if your religious.. I know some of what your going through- I used to have those same thoughts. My own family used to think I was just wanting attention-but i was trying o reach out before anything serious happend. Go to a church and request to speak with a leader of a church facility- they are helpful as well- just remember- all those professionals have to maintain privacy until you say you are going to harm yourself-once you say that- then they may take matters into their own hands- if thats what you need then by all means go for the help. take a relaxing bath/shower-listen to some classical music or light jazz-cause they dont have words to make you think- just relaxing music-get online and paly a game on yahoo or pogo if i may- it's free and i find that monopoly is a great game- hope i gave you some type of positve direction- it will work out for you-just when things seem like they cant get any worst- GOD will open doors for you and put positive people in your life-God has something better for you- you can be a testimony to someone else and help others- work doing charity work- you'll make friends and network-also it will give you something to do- Hope this helped- and remember. I am not a medical professional-i am just giving some helpful advise- it is ultimately your choice- but I am sure you will be fine and make a positive decisionHealth Question & Answer
about to fall apart.Health Question & Answer