Does this spell an inadequecy of me ?!
Question: Does this spell an inadequecy of me .?
im 30 and ive suffered , rage , aggression, ptsd , low self esteem and paranoia, agoraphobia, high panic and anxiety for a long time now..
i suffered bad bullying, taunting in childhood and in my early adult life, i bottled up a lot of anger and used to have aggressive outbursts regularly.
suffered physical attacks, had rage outburst, i have a criminal past etc.
ive always struggled to be confident and assert myself throughout my life, let myself be manipulated and bullied until rage would build , and i would snap and lose it..
ive always been very sensitive to criticism, words people say, their opinions etc.
many times in the present i notice if i feel imposed upon, or manipulated or spoken down to , or intimidated or any confrontation where i need to speak up and be assertive..
i start to panic, have a panic attacks, doubt myself, lose my confidence , feel intimidated , lose my voice , feel unable to assert myself, clam up, feel scared of asserting myself, become floundered and flustered etc.
then because i feel im inadequate or weak or others have made me feel inferior because i cant assert , i quickly become ' enraged ' and aggressive and feel like causing a confrontation because i perceive ive failed at being assertive..
what is this .? is it ptsd symptoms .? or an inadequacy or weakness of me .?Health Question & Answer
i suffered bad bullying, taunting in childhood and in my early adult life, i bottled up a lot of anger and used to have aggressive outbursts regularly.
suffered physical attacks, had rage outburst, i have a criminal past etc.
ive always struggled to be confident and assert myself throughout my life, let myself be manipulated and bullied until rage would build , and i would snap and lose it..
ive always been very sensitive to criticism, words people say, their opinions etc.
many times in the present i notice if i feel imposed upon, or manipulated or spoken down to , or intimidated or any confrontation where i need to speak up and be assertive..
i start to panic, have a panic attacks, doubt myself, lose my confidence , feel intimidated , lose my voice , feel unable to assert myself, clam up, feel scared of asserting myself, become floundered and flustered etc.
then because i feel im inadequate or weak or others have made me feel inferior because i cant assert , i quickly become ' enraged ' and aggressive and feel like causing a confrontation because i perceive ive failed at being assertive..
what is this .? is it ptsd symptoms .? or an inadequacy or weakness of me .?Health Question & Answer
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I believe it is more of a social phobia, take baby steps
Don't be so hard on your self, give your self credit for every thing every day that takes you one step closer to the life you desire
spoil your self when you do well, just some little thing as a reward, that keeps you motivated ( :Health Question & Answer
Don't be so hard on your self, give your self credit for every thing every day that takes you one step closer to the life you desire
spoil your self when you do well, just some little thing as a reward, that keeps you motivated ( :Health Question & Answer
You dont actually say,but you seem to be going through all this alone.?Why havent you sought help.?
It isnt a weakness in you as such as you seem to have been through so much in the past and this affects how you act now.
Please seek help,there are people who can help you with the past and coming to terms with it and how you can manage your life now.Health Question & Answer
It isnt a weakness in you as such as you seem to have been through so much in the past and this affects how you act now.
Please seek help,there are people who can help you with the past and coming to terms with it and how you can manage your life now.Health Question & Answer
I am a fairly knowledgeable person in mental health symptoms and diagnoses, and this is way beyond my abilities. You need to see a professional. NAMI www.nami.org can help you find one.
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I am starting to think that separating my mental problems and inadequacies or weaknesses is nearly impossible.
How can I separate what is just my personality, and what is a chemical imbalance.? I can't even figure out what I want from life, much less solve this complicated question.
My "other half" has decided that I cannot blame my personality on my disorders, and from the "discussion" (pretty much me just getting verbally pounded into the ground) we had regarding this, it seems that I don't really HAVE any disorders. I just have the need to BLAME everything on a made up medical condition.
Sorry... I'm a little bitter. :)
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K, back to myself now: I really think that your disorders are what is causing you so much distress. You need one-on-one therapy, and it seems that the system is pretty much letting you down. It was my thought that centralized healthcare is for the benefit of all, but in your case, you should be able to get the treatment you need, and cannot.Health Question & Answer
How can I separate what is just my personality, and what is a chemical imbalance.? I can't even figure out what I want from life, much less solve this complicated question.
My "other half" has decided that I cannot blame my personality on my disorders, and from the "discussion" (pretty much me just getting verbally pounded into the ground) we had regarding this, it seems that I don't really HAVE any disorders. I just have the need to BLAME everything on a made up medical condition.
Sorry... I'm a little bitter. :)
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K, back to myself now: I really think that your disorders are what is causing you so much distress. You need one-on-one therapy, and it seems that the system is pretty much letting you down. It was my thought that centralized healthcare is for the benefit of all, but in your case, you should be able to get the treatment you need, and cannot.Health Question & Answer