Whats wrong with me..help!?!
Question: Whats wrong with me..help!.?
im not gonna get to detailed cuz this question would go on forever if i did but here are my problems
for the last few months i get upset over EVERYTHING(well its been like this since 6th grade but just recently got worse), im always beating myself up,cutting myself, trying to hurt myself in some way. the other day after me and my mom were fighting i was so upset i ran into my room and laid down and then later i couldnt get up out of my bed. when she came in to check on me she was trying to talk to me but for some reason i couldnt talk back, i was just laying there mumbling nothing. i feel like a crazy person or somthing. usually what sets all this off is if i think someone might be mad at me i started crying and freaking out saying im so sorry please dont be mad at me and my mom will say its fine emily but no matter what she says i feel like its not fine and i feel like im ruining everyones life but i could never actually kill myself cuz i know my mom would be sad cuz she would be alone and she needs me but i feel like at the same time im so hard to deal with cuz im so emotional so i wish i was someone else who was a better daughter.
what do i do.?.? i make life so hard for my mom and i hate myself for it
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for the last few months i get upset over EVERYTHING(well its been like this since 6th grade but just recently got worse), im always beating myself up,cutting myself, trying to hurt myself in some way. the other day after me and my mom were fighting i was so upset i ran into my room and laid down and then later i couldnt get up out of my bed. when she came in to check on me she was trying to talk to me but for some reason i couldnt talk back, i was just laying there mumbling nothing. i feel like a crazy person or somthing. usually what sets all this off is if i think someone might be mad at me i started crying and freaking out saying im so sorry please dont be mad at me and my mom will say its fine emily but no matter what she says i feel like its not fine and i feel like im ruining everyones life but i could never actually kill myself cuz i know my mom would be sad cuz she would be alone and she needs me but i feel like at the same time im so hard to deal with cuz im so emotional so i wish i was someone else who was a better daughter.
what do i do.?.? i make life so hard for my mom and i hate myself for it
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Answers:
I know what you feel, for as long as I can remember I have been told that I am this horrible monster, I'm a brat, that no-one likes me and I should save my family the effort of killing me and kill myself, etc.
I cook meals for my family, do the washing-up, all the laundry and the cleaning around the house while my brother and sisters watch movies, go shopping, play computer etc. and my mum sits in her room. As soon as I sit down to rest, I get called lazy and that I never do anything to help around the house and all I do is watch movies all day long, then I get sent to my room.
My father was always abusive so from a young age I learned to take care of myself and stand up to him, the only result that came from this is that instead of 6 punching bags all the time, I became his favourite right up until my parents split up. After that, because my family was so used to using violence for the least, littlest things, I could leave a hair brush on the lounge and I'd get beaten up by my older brother, older sisters and my mum (I'm the second youngest). In the past, my mum, my father, my brother and two of my sisters have tried to kill me, each time it was for things I didn't do, but that only made it worse because to my family, not only did I do the things that I didn't do but I was also a lier to them.
Anyway, I have to go but you get the idea. Just try to stay in there and keep away from suicide! Many times I kept thinking that it would be so much easier just to end it all but it's not the answer.
Good luck, Dancing Cookie =]Health Question & Answer
I cook meals for my family, do the washing-up, all the laundry and the cleaning around the house while my brother and sisters watch movies, go shopping, play computer etc. and my mum sits in her room. As soon as I sit down to rest, I get called lazy and that I never do anything to help around the house and all I do is watch movies all day long, then I get sent to my room.
My father was always abusive so from a young age I learned to take care of myself and stand up to him, the only result that came from this is that instead of 6 punching bags all the time, I became his favourite right up until my parents split up. After that, because my family was so used to using violence for the least, littlest things, I could leave a hair brush on the lounge and I'd get beaten up by my older brother, older sisters and my mum (I'm the second youngest). In the past, my mum, my father, my brother and two of my sisters have tried to kill me, each time it was for things I didn't do, but that only made it worse because to my family, not only did I do the things that I didn't do but I was also a lier to them.
Anyway, I have to go but you get the idea. Just try to stay in there and keep away from suicide! Many times I kept thinking that it would be so much easier just to end it all but it's not the answer.
Good luck, Dancing Cookie =]Health Question & Answer
Wow! Just remember every day that you were put on this earth for a definite reason, and that you are made in the image of God, and he loves you. Talk to Jesus, and ask him to take over and lead you in the right way. Health Question & Answer