This is going to sound a little crazy, but....?!
Question: This is going to sound a little crazy, but.....?
I have a phobia of soap operas. I'm just gonna give you that right now. And it's not just all soap operas, it's just one. Now let me tell you the story.
For about a year (I was 12) I was molested on and off. I never told anyone, still to this day (I'm going to be 18). Soon after that I started watching a soap opera with my sister (something she is really into). She then convinced me to start role playing the soap opera online. I became addicted. It was like another life for me. I could be someone else. I didn't have to deal with my real life troubles. Well after about two years my sister met someone else to role play with online and she didn't want to role play with me anymore. I went crazy. I was pushed back into my real life. I started role playing in my mind. I would sit for hours on end in my room, or up late at night and just role play in my mind. It was a whole different life for me. I try to block it out of my head now but every time I see even a Commercial for the soap opera I go crazy! It hurts. I have to try not to think about it. Nobody understands. My mom and sister both watch it and it drives me mad. I know I'm psycho but I don't know what to do. I was seeing a psychologist last year but I didn't feel comfortable enough to tell her this because I don't think it's a common thing. Does this have anything to do with me being molested.? Have you ever heard of anything like this.?
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For about a year (I was 12) I was molested on and off. I never told anyone, still to this day (I'm going to be 18). Soon after that I started watching a soap opera with my sister (something she is really into). She then convinced me to start role playing the soap opera online. I became addicted. It was like another life for me. I could be someone else. I didn't have to deal with my real life troubles. Well after about two years my sister met someone else to role play with online and she didn't want to role play with me anymore. I went crazy. I was pushed back into my real life. I started role playing in my mind. I would sit for hours on end in my room, or up late at night and just role play in my mind. It was a whole different life for me. I try to block it out of my head now but every time I see even a Commercial for the soap opera I go crazy! It hurts. I have to try not to think about it. Nobody understands. My mom and sister both watch it and it drives me mad. I know I'm psycho but I don't know what to do. I was seeing a psychologist last year but I didn't feel comfortable enough to tell her this because I don't think it's a common thing. Does this have anything to do with me being molested.? Have you ever heard of anything like this.?
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Answers:
It's pretty common to try to escape a tough real life situation by identifying with a fictional universe that makes us feel safe. It's not weird or unusual, but given that it's impacting your ability to deal with real life, you should get help from a psychologist. Health Question & Answer
you don't have to worry about whether it is common or not,everything is common now a days.you will hear of things,that you will never believe.
your psychological problem is a common type.you got attached to your elder sister(you might be having less friends).it usually happens that you get yourself attached to a person and when that person moves on ,you feel isolated,angry and you go mad at one thing you used to do most with that person.in your case that is soap operas,in other cases it might be some game,singing toghther,dancing.
getting help from psychologist is very good .if you don't feel comfortable with this psychologist change your psychologist.live life fully,don't fear of anything.Health Question & Answer
your psychological problem is a common type.you got attached to your elder sister(you might be having less friends).it usually happens that you get yourself attached to a person and when that person moves on ,you feel isolated,angry and you go mad at one thing you used to do most with that person.in your case that is soap operas,in other cases it might be some game,singing toghther,dancing.
getting help from psychologist is very good .if you don't feel comfortable with this psychologist change your psychologist.live life fully,don't fear of anything.Health Question & Answer
You need to deal with your real problems, the key word there being deal. You are using escapism as a way to deal with it, and I guess you can see how that does not work. Forget the problem with the soap operas, they represent the real problem. I have been there it is hard to deal with, but worth it. You have to talk to someone, if you can't tell your mom, why not a psychiatrist, I promise your issues will not shock any good doctor.
I think you didn't want to tell the doc about the soap opera dilemma, because you knew the doc would ask what the real issue was....am I right.?
A problem with molestation is that the victim internalizes as somehow their fault, even if it is only subconsciously, it makes us too embarrassed to admit what happened to another person, but that is part of being victimized further, and whoever did this to you was counting on you to fall into this. Don't let them get their way, let it out!Health Question & Answer
I think you didn't want to tell the doc about the soap opera dilemma, because you knew the doc would ask what the real issue was....am I right.?
A problem with molestation is that the victim internalizes as somehow their fault, even if it is only subconsciously, it makes us too embarrassed to admit what happened to another person, but that is part of being victimized further, and whoever did this to you was counting on you to fall into this. Don't let them get their way, let it out!Health Question & Answer