Hi. I think I am going insane...can somebody help please? I lost my beloved fiance to a very out of the blue,?!
Question: Hi. I think I am going insane...can somebody help please.? I lost my beloved fiance to a very out of the blue,.?
I lost my beloved fiance to a very out of the blue, very out character suicide 5 months ago. He had a shock that day and he seems to have somehow flipped. The shock is unbelievable. I can't cope. I live in England and none of my family are here. I am all on my own. We were together 10 years and literally did everything together. I can't explain how I am feeling. I am living in a big house all on my own. I am stuck in night after night, weekend after weekend all on my own. I have an incredibly stressful job and I have literally got the neighbours from hell. I have tried the enviormental health, I have tried the police-nobody will help. I can't find anywherelse to live, I cry all the time, I am angry, stressed and I feel like a pressure cooker. My temper is really frayed, I am suicidal and I feel trapped. I can't cope and I am scared I am having some sort of breakdown. I am having bereavement counselling at the moment, but it is not helping. You really find out who your friends are in a crisis. People ask you how you feel, but when you try and tell them, they tell you there are worse things. I feel like getting on a plane and going anywhere, anywhere at all. I am a Catholic, so I feel guilty all the time, because I think this is my fault. I feel like I am being punished. Down on top of it, I have some serious childhood issues that are coming back to haunt me. I look in the mirror and I just look haunted. I don't know what to do-i literally feel like I am battling to save my own life. So sorry for being so moany, but please can somebody help.? Thank you. Health Question & Answer
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I am sincerely sorry for your loss which must be all the harder to bear because of his suicide and your religious beliefs. It's understandable you are overwhelmed by work, neighbours, etc. especially since you are still adjusting to being alone. Is there any way to get some breathing space while you think about the future and what you want.? Could you for example rent out the house and visit your family to get some support.? Or maybe think about selling the house and either downsizing, or moving back closer to family.? Maybe now is not the time for big decisions but is does sound as though you could use more support. If you have no close friends who could support you, the Samaritans are always at the end of the phone. As for your childhood issues, when you feel strong enough you could ask your GP for Counselling to address these issues separately. Another potential source of comfort and support is your local Priest. I wish you peace of mind and hope you are able to get the support you need to help you through this sad time.Health Question & Answer
wow that is alot to go through. What sign are you.? And your fiance what sign was he.? Well I kinda was thinking he was a scorpio. Read about that sign they usually suffer from depression and mental illness. It's really sad to hear about this. My Mother and Sister are both this sign and suffer my sister is bi polar. Read into it.It's all 2 true about sign's! Sorry for your lost.Health Question & Answer
Go see your doctor. http://www.citizensadvice.org.uk/index/g... is a good place to turn, they will find the right people to help.
Secondly, getting on that plane and going somewhere for a ''getaway'' from all your stresses doesn't sound like a bad idea either - go somewhere warm. Take care, and look after yourself.Health Question & Answer
Secondly, getting on that plane and going somewhere for a ''getaway'' from all your stresses doesn't sound like a bad idea either - go somewhere warm. Take care, and look after yourself.Health Question & Answer
You dont need to apologise. My heart goes out to you. I think you may need to go and see your doctor. You say you dont have your family around.? Maybe it might do you good to go on a trip to vist your family. Please dont do any thing stupid your fiance would not want you to be like this. May be if you go to your doctors he will get you in touch with a councillor may be even a bereavement councillor. You need to try to come to terms with your loss I know that is easier said than done.
Please seek helpHealth Question & Answer
Please seek helpHealth Question & Answer